Exams coming up....

Just two more days now =S And I have hardly opened my books at all! Ugh, unbelievable... But after this update, I'll be a good girl and hit the books. Think there are two main reasons I haven't been studying much;

1. I feel that I'm pretty much fucked over when it comes to this subject (exfac) anyways, so what's the point in me reading up on it when it doesn't make sense to me, and I can't remember anything of it for the life of me? I'm pretty sure I'll fail, because this subject is so far from anything I can do, it's not even funny.

2. ...omg, this is gonna be about guys again, isn't it? Yes, indeed it is =) You might remember I've been telling about this 'other guy' I met at new years eve? Well, I kinda had some people over here 3 days ago or so, and he unexpectedly turned up. I was.... slightly taken off guard. To put it mildly. And I was insanely happy, of course. Aaaand as the evening progressed (and we both started out with about 8 shots of tequila each......), things started happening. Just little things, and it was pretty much innocent. I was really happy things had progressed with him, more than I'd really hoped for, but then all those evil thoughts started crawling back into my head. I don't really think he's interested at all, and the only reason anything happened at all should obviously be all the tequila. I haven't heard a word from him since that night, and I strongly doubt I will, but I'll at least try to get some contact with him, without making him annoyed by trying -to- hard. It's a fine line. So yeah, now I'm just going around feeling down because of that, because this is a guy I've been pretty much fascinated with for almost a year now. And that's a long while for someone I've barely met. I don't quite understand it myself, I find it kind of odd, but... That's just the way it is. Either I hope to get some sign that he actually -is- slightly interested, or I hope he'll turn me down so I can get my mind off him. Either way is fine (although I strongly would prefer the first one... =) ), I just need a straight answer.

Been having some pretty horrid nightmares again too. It's fascinating how they never seem to end, really. Lately it's been the "chased and attempted murdered" ones again. Me locking myself into the room I sleep in when I visit my grandparents, people (my mother, I think) slamming on the door trying to break it open, and me trying to escape through the window, onto the roof, but the roof is slippery and I don't dare step out on it. I understand what some of it means, but not everything. Oh wells, hopefully they'll stop eventually ^^;

I've also gotten a new job now =) It wasn't supposed to be a regular job, I was just gonna cover for my roomie when she leaves for the US, but apparently... the manager had other thoughts, and I think he intends for me to stay there for about 5 years =/ I'll just try my best and see how it turns out, God knows I need the money =)

And lastly, don't have a drawing for you this time, had some other things to think about lately, but I am working on a drawing, even though it's not a part of my Challenge. I'll post it here when it's done, I'm hoping to make it a birthday present for a friend of mine, Nicole :)

Okay, sorry again for the long post ^^;
I'll try to get some reading done now, just hope I won't get distracted by thoughts of.... well, you'd know if you read this whole, long rant :)

Take care!
- Ulvinnen

Been a while...

Haven't been in here for a little while now, had one hundred and fifty things to think about lately :P Wow, just realized I've managed to be in a relationship and get dumped (again) since the last time I updated!! Good thing is that I'm over the worst part now, so there won't be a long depressing rant like it was the last time =p But seriously! What am I doing wrong? :O Hehe, something will work out eventually I guess ^^

My challenge is coming along as well! I actually have two new drawings for you this time, since I've been so lazy updating this page =P

The first one, "Hunt" - I am not at all pleased with this... It was coming along nicely, but I decided to finish it up really quickly the night I got dumped by my latest boyfriend, just to get my mind on other things after a long while with just crying ^^ So the result is less than good, but hopefully, one day, I'll manage to redo the whole thing;



As a wrote in my description on my deviantART account; "This is hunt and, inevitably, someone ends up getting hurt". I'm not always the most positive of people... :P

Next is the fourth picture in my challenge, "Innocence":



Guess this isn't all to bad? I was pretty pleased with it once I was done with it, but meh... Not so sure any more... Very much in the mood for drawing now, just for the sake of improving, so once I'm through with the rest of my homework in Japanese (exams coming up quicker than I'd like!) I might start on the next drawing in my challenge ^^ If you wonder what the heck this picture has to do with innocence, by the way, drop by my deviantART page and find it there, it's a better description there, for those who are interested :P

Haha, and I managed to lose my mobile... So I got a new one. Again :D This time it's a Sony Ericsson T707, it's pretty~ I'll try to be more careful with this one, promise ^^

Oh, and before I'm completely off, I can tell you that me and some friends have started a movie club (geeky, I know :P ) at our school, and every other Tuesday we show an Asian movie. I'm in charge of making the posters for the movies we're showing, and this Tuesday we're showing the Chinese movie "Infernal Affairs" (the movie "The Departed" is a ripoff of this movie, this is the better and original version ;p ), and this is the poster I made for it. I usually make it together with Marius, but he was busy that day, but he made the description/text xD



Pretty neat, ey? ^^

Anyways, that's all for now! I'll try to be back soon with a new drawing, so stay tuned ;)

Jaa ne!